Blogging Anyone?

I was told that blogging is more like an Internet journal of your life. However I cannot begin to understand why people would share their life online with strangers. Does it create a sense of closeness, a sense of belonging? Is it the fact that I have no desire to feel close, or belong to strangers, that I cannot not blog? Three times a week for a writer; that shouldn't be difficult right? Nevertheless, I find myself struggling to find words to share with this new world. So, I not only dread the writing of the blog, but I also dread the reading of my blog.

so, um... yeah... Enjoy!

Where is my Microsoft Publisher?!

Okay so the last website I built, or attempted to build was done through Microsoft Publisher.

For my mid-term project I must create a website that represents me as a writer. Microsoft Publisher is not listed as an option; we must use either Dreamweaver of Wordpress.com. Although I am very eager to learn Dreamweaver, I think I may go for simpler this time around. I have been playing around in the program for a few days, but fear that my ideas will not transfer easily. I have already came to an understanding that my final website will be designed through Dreamweaver; but, my Midterm project may have to take another route.

Upon the completion of the website designed for class, I hope to have a strong understanding of Dreamweaver and HTML code. Having this knowledge will provide a better foundation so all my sites don't have to go through Microsoft Publisher!

I Love Monk!!

So today I finally made it to the Post Office to pick up my package. I wasn't too sure what it was because I have been ordering quite a few things off the Internet. To my surprise, Monk had arrived! To those of you unfamiliar with Monk the television show, click here: http://www.usanetwork.com/series/monk/ . The best detective, private consultant, whatever you'd like to call him, Adrian Monk is located in San Fransisco and has OCD. Although just about everything scares him, he doesn't let that interfere with his "work." (Most of the time) I have watched as Monk has conquered trail after trail, case after case; he has gotten better at simply "living" too!
I wasn't privileged enough to have been watching Monk from the first season. I probably started at like the 3 or 4 seasons. Therefore it was without a doubt I had to get the complete series! Monk Seasons 1-8 here I come!!

On Being Humble

We could avoid much of the negative energy in life, if more people would admit when they are wrong. So often fall outs occur over misinterpretations, misplaced thoughts, glares in the wrong direction, i.e. the forgettable things in life. If we allow ourselves to be humble enough to state our wrongs, life would be more enjoyable, more rewarding.

Procrastination

Things to get for my desk at work:

1. Hand sanitizer (Big bottle)

2.Print picture of Caleb and Gavin

3. Calendar (Hand held one)

4. Bible Verse - Or something inspiring to put on the wall

(Think about Daily Bible Verse)

5.Box of tissues

6. Small can of spray disinfectant

7. Stickys

I've been staring at this bare desk, for many sign ins, and sign outs. This list, comprised of things I wanted in my first cubical, still remains a list. I find myself writing "To Do List," "To Get List" and they sit, in paper form, waiting for me to fulfill them.

Brown Sugar

Before we married expectations

we just lived in the now

picked flowers tossed in wind

kissed with eyes closed

looked forward to forgetting everything

young and wishful, we never tasted doubt

and now I'm wishing I never tasted you.

I used to watch Brown Sugar on repeat. Triggering memories of my first love and the possibilities of us. I was 12 when I met him. 16 when I let him know me. 18 when I tried to hate him. Then 23 when I finally forgave him. He was a pathway to something beautiful; paved with sweet lies, and chocolate kisses, covered in saliva from various women. I loved it though; this is why I couldn't let go. Brown Sugar filled me with thoughts of forever, he plus me; I cried. Sang the the sound track..."love of my life, you are my friend..."

friend, friend, friend...

Writer's Block...(or whatever we call it)

As I sit with a white canvas, trying to blog and write poetry, I have decided to simply record my random thoughts and go from there.
Hopefully it will help my process, soon... lol


1.

and it watched me

blades came out of lines

razors cut through the white space

I dropped the paper

hands leaking from diagonal cuts

I open my mouth

licked my fingers

and begin

to write

Writing...

"I wrote with tears and anguish, pouring into the pages all the pain that life had meant to me."

-Upton Sinclair

When I first started writing poetry, it was for privacy. My brothers found their way into my diary and my outlet was stolen. So I tried to get poetic; put my life on pages and sold the story as someone elses. And it worked for a while, until I begin to give too many details. Everyone knew, I was a poet. A poet who faced her demons and others head on with words, (The pen is mightier than the sword right).

As time progressed, I realize that writing has briefly summarized not only my struggles, but also, the battles I see second hand. Writing has analyzed the content to produce solutions. Whether the solution is a direct one, or just the beginning of one, progress is made.

However, lately, my progress has been minimal. No longer writing for me or the people I was once so close to, I find my path changing. So I step back and question, am I becoming well rounded, or losing part of me...

Does Freedom Come With Age?

While on one of the many websites I frequent, I came across a video titled "Grandma Telling it Like it is." Immediately, I thought of my Grandmother, affectionately called Gram-Sa-Ditt.

Although my Gram-Sa-Ditt probably wouldn't agree with me, I believe the honesty that prevails in this video is her all day. Granted, she doesn't curse, or use vernacular that is not Christian-like; she says what is on her mind without reservation.

So I wonder, why can't we all take a lesson from this. Must honesty, even brutal honesty, come at a age where we no longer care what people think? Or can we simple lay the truth out no matter the age and expect people to swallow it just the same?


Check out the video ; ) More than honest... it is funny. I needed something to blog about. Enjoy!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-1ehDZv6JQ

Maybe I lied...

No maybe, I definitely did... I don't enjoy blogging. I find myself pulling for something, to satisfy people I don't know...What is the purpose of blogging again?

Saul Williams-- Well Represented!

So, after what I consider my first "rant" (that is what blogs are right) I think I like it.

Saul Williams is the topic of my next one.

(Side note: Should I branch away from writing about poets, okay…next time ; )

Saul Williams is an incredible poet, actor, musician, -- all ‘round artist. I believe his website www.saulwilliams.com does a great job representing his diverse qualities.
When entering the website I was immediately drawn in by the unique set up. 13 Links takes you click by click to different areas in Williams’ life and mind. You have the option to look at photos of Williams as you read his thoughts. Williams has created a website that leaves the viewer with a profound feeling that is thought of well after leaving the site.

Saul Williams inimitable style is matched with his personal website; therefore, representing him well, regardless of the job at hand. His website is an extension of him.

Take a look, enjoy!

T.D. Jakes

Ok class, today we will be discussing T.D. Jakes.

Can I say that? Do I have an audience, is anyone watching, reading, or simply acknowledging this blog. Well, it doesn't matter- I know Jenny is ; )

So yeah, T.D. Jakes is an extraordinary man that has allowed God to use him in a way that changes the lives of others. His website speaks to what is important to him, and allows interaction with the viewers. T.D. Jakes' web presence is great. He too, has a blog, and a prayer interaction page that allows you to submit a prayer request to have someone pray with you.

T.D. Jakes has many talents; he is a Bishop, a writer, (novels, movies), plus many more. His website works because it gives the audience him and his talents. We are allowed to experience him all in on place, and this is one of the reasons his websites are so successful.

http://www.tdjakes.com/

http://www.1800bishop2.org/v2/?redi=no

What Will Represent YOU?

Sometimes you don't have to search the web, to find what you are looking for. Sometimes, it is delivered to your inbox.

I'm not real experienced in writing blogs, don't know if I understand the concept. However, when trying to complete my HW assignment I was taken aback by the email I received telling of a poet Gabrielle Bouliane, passing away from cancer. So I thought I'd write briefly about my feelings regarding the matter as well as the increase of Internet recognition for her.

Although I didn't know Gabrielle personally, I was moved by the love that people in the poetry community have for her. She did not have her own website that I know of; however, I believe that all the blogs, post, comments, etc. do a wonderful job of representing who she was and how she will be remembered.

Ironically, when this email was sent, I was attending my Aunt Gertrude’s funeral in Philly. Both Gabrielle, and my Aunt Gertrude passed away from cancer; even so, they found out how to live, even when death was apparent. Quite like Gabrielle, my Aunt touched the lives of many and their memories represent her and her “work.” In light of their deaths, I must ask a few questions. (Even to myself) What will our life search turn up? Will the people whose path we cross do “a particularly good job of representing us and our work?”

I understand the importance of a web presence, but what if you’re represented well online, but the memories you have created in this life are refundable?

You don’t have to search the world to find life, you just have to live.

Please take a look at the following pages that have Gabrielle Bouliane’s poetry, video, or tributes on them. Feel free to also conduct your own Internet search.

http://www.livepoets.com/poet.aspx?id=14

indiefeed_gabriellebouliane_lifesentence.mp3

http://theaccidentalnovelist.wordpress.com/2010/01/30/for-gabrielle-bouliane-1966-2010/

http://www.mikemcgee.net/?p=669